A Christmas Story

In the last year of the reign of Biden, there was a ruler in Judea named Benyamin. He was a man of great cunning and greater cruelty.

In those days, Judea, though powerful, was a vassal state. Its strength was created through alliances with distant empires. It wielded its might with a fierce arm and harboured a deep hatred for its neighbors. Benyamin, fearing the loss of his power, sought to destroy the Philistines on that small strip of land called Gaza, and claim it for himself.

For over four hundred and forty days and nights, he commanded his armies to bomb their towns and villages, reducing them to rubble. The Philistines were corralled, trapped within walls and wire, with no escape. Benyamin promised them safety in Rafah and bombed the people there. He offered refuge in Jabalia, and bombed the people there.

In Gaza, there was no safety and there was no food.

Even as leaders wept for the Philistines, they sold weapons to Benyamin and lent him money to prosecute his war. Thus, the world watched in silence as the Philistines endured great suffering. Their cries rose up to heaven, seemingly unanswered.

And so it came to pass, in the last days of the last year of Biden, there was a humble Philistine named Yusouf born of the family of Dawoud. Before the war, Yusouf had been a mechanic. He worked hard each day fixing tires and carburetors, changing break-pads and exhaust systems. And at the end of each day, he would return home to his young wife, Mariam. The same Mariam, you may have heard of her, who was known for her inexhaustable cheerfulness.

That was before the war. Now Mariam was gaunt and tired, and heavy with child.

On the night of the winter solstice, in a dream, a messenger came to Yusouf. “Be not afraid, Yusouf”, the messenger said. “Be not afraid for yourself, for the wife you love so very much, or for your son—who will change the world. What will be, will be and was always meant to be”. Yusouf was troubled by this dream, and found himself torn between wonder, happiness, and fear. Mariam asked him why he looked troubled, but he said nothing and kept his own counsel.

The following night the same messenger visited Mariam in her dreams. Mariam was neither afraid nor troubled. The next morning she had a smile on her face that Yusouf had not seen for so long he had almost forgotten it. “It is time, Yusouf”, she said. “We have to go to the hospital in Beit Lahiya.”

Yusouf was troubled. Long ago he had learned to trust Mariam, but his motorbike had no fuel and it was a long walk. Too far for Mariam, and they were bombing Beit Lahiya. He remembered the words of the messenger in his dreams and he went from neighbour to neighbour. A teaspoon of fuel here, half a cup there. No one demanded payment. If they had any fuel, no one refused him. Having little, they shared what they had. It was the small act of kindness that binds communities. Yusouf wept for their generosity.

When he had gathered enough fuel, he had Mariam climb on the bike. Shadiah, the old sweet seller who had not made a sweet in over a year and could barely remember the smell of honey or rosewater, helped her onto the back.

Yusouf rode carefully. He weaved slowly around potholes and navigated bumps. In spite of his care, he could feel Mariam tense and grip him tighter. And then the motorbike stopped. A last gasping jerk and silence. The fuel was spent.

The late afternoon air was cooling as he helped Mariam walk towards the hospital. When they arrived at the gate, a porter stopped, them. “They’re evacuating the hospital. You can’t go in”, the porter told them. Yusouf begged. “My wife, she is going to give birth,” he told the porter—who could plainly see this for himself. The porter looked at Mariam and took pity. “You can’t go in, but there is a small community clinic around the corner. It was bombed recently, but some of it, a room or two, is still standing. I’ll send a midwife.”

Yusouf gently guided Mariam to the clinic. He found an old mattress on a broken gurney and a blanket. He lay it on the floor and settled Mariam.

If there had been a midwife—if she had ever arrived… if she had ever got the porter’s message—she would have been eager to retell the story of the birth. Sharing a coffee, with a date-filled siwa, she would have painted the picture. Mariam’s face was one of grace. Yusouf anxiously held her hand. The baby came quickly, with a minimum of fuss, as if Mariam was having her fifth and not her first.

Yusouf quickly scooped up the baby as it began to vocalise it’s unhappiness with the shock of a cold Gaza night. He cut the cord crudely but effectively with his pocket knife. And it was only as he was passing the the baby to Mariam that he looked confused. He did not have the son he was promised, he had a daughter. The moment was so fleeting that quantum physicists would have struggled to measure the breadth of time, and Yusouf smiled at the messenger’s joke.

Because there was no midwife to witness this moment, we need to account for the witnesses who were present. There was a mangy dog with a limp looking for warmth. He watched patiently and, once the birth was completed, he found a place at Mariam’s feet. There were three rats that crawled out of the rubble looking for scraps. They gave a hopeful sniff of the night air and sat respectfully and companionably on a broken chair. As soon as the moment passed, they disappeared into the crevices afforded by broken brick and torn concrete. Finally, there was an unremarkable cat. In comfortable fellowship, they all watch the moment of birth knowing that, tomorrow or the next day, they were mortal enemies, but tonight there was peace.

“Nasrin”, Yousuf whispered in Mariam’s ear as he kissed her forehead. “We’ll call her Nasrin.” The wild rose that grows and conquers impossible places.

There was a photo journalist called Weissman, who heard from the porter that was a very pregnant woman at the clinic. “She’s about to pop”, the porter said. Weissman hurried to the bombed out clinic so that he could bear witness to this miracle in the midst of war.

He missed the birth. And when he arrived, he did not announce his presence. It seemed rude. An intrusion on a very private moment. It did not, however, stop him from taking photos for AAP.

He later shared those images with the world. Yusouf lay on the gurney mattress, propped against a half destroyed wall. Mariam was lying against him, exhausted, eyes closed, covered in a dirty blanket. The baby Nasrin was feeding quietly, just the top of her head with a shock of improbably thick dark hair peeking out. Yousuf stared through the broken roof at the stars in heaven. The blackness of a world without electricity made resplendent. He looked up with wonderment and contentment on his face. He was blessed, he thought. No. They were blessed. The messenger was right.

As Weissman picked his way in the dark towards the hospital gate, where he had last seen the porter, he shared the same hope that he had seen on Yusouf’s face. New life can change things.

The night sky lit up, brightening his path to the hospital. He turned back and was awed by a red flare descending slowly over the remains of the clinic as if announcing a new beginning to the world. A chance for something different was born here today.

The explosion shook the ground and Weissman fell. Cement and brick dust from where the clinic had stood rose sharply in to the air. An avalanche of dust raced towards him.